Finding My Way Back

Everyone struggles in life. Sometimes it takes us down a dark path, but we must always keep trudging along to find the way out.

Lately, I have been feeling down. I lie. It has actually been over a year now. I have kept my distance from friends, my house is becoming a disaster, and I have to remind myself daily how great I have it even though life isn’t what I dreamed it would be.

I usually keep my true self away from my blog posts, but not anymore. For the past year, I haven’t blogged much nor have I written as much as I would like. This past weekend I decided that enough is enough. I have been walking in mud for months trying to find my way out to happiness, but it is time to find that vine and pull, yank, swing myself immediately to the right path.

Book rejections, my mother’s Alzheimer’s, and my struggle with fertility have been like these tremendous weights on my shoulders all consuming my thoughts. At some point, we have to just break free and take charge. So this is me taking charge.

I am revamping my blog. My next Children’s book has been written; I just need to edit, edit, rewrite, and edit again. The three books I have written and published are all FREE for the next couple days! Summer is great for reading! Just click on FREE!

As for my mother’s Alzheimer’s and my infertility? I just need to admit to myself that it is what it is. I have guilt that I cannot provide my son siblings and I have guilt that I cannot help my mother in all the ways she needs due to time and financial reasons. I also have embarrassment about the infertility and have not spoken much about it. I am done not speaking. It is time to yell about something that people should feel like they can share. The time is now. I just need to do the best I can, appreciate all that I do have, visit my mom as much as I can, and just live.

If you are going through struggles as well, please remember you are not alone. There is a light at the end of that long dark road. I promise. You just need to keep walking or running. But don’t just sit in that darkness and hope you will find the way out. You must make yourself get up and get out. If you don’t have the energy, please tell someone. Tell a friend. Tell a family member. Call a counselor. You are not alone and we can all get through this. ❤️

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The End of Summer

Today is officially my last day of summer. I woke up to my four-year-old sliding in bed with me and snuggling. There is no better way to start the day than that.

However, it makes the thought of waking up tomorrow and going to work a hard one. I am excited to have the new school year begin and excited to see my students from last year. Although, I would prefer to just play with my son all day…I am fully aware that I am so lucky to have a job that allows me so much time with him during the summer.
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Save the Puppy

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As a teacher, it is bittersweet that the school year has come to an end. I absolutely adore my students and their parents. I truly do. Due to being a career changer, I (at times) feel like I don’t fit in with the “meant-to-be” teachers. They always knew they wanted to be a teacher. I love that about them. Though I am much older than some (I still can’t believe that I will be four decades old this year!), I feel like I am younger at times. Strange, but true. They know what they want to do for the rest of their life and have known since they were kids. I, on the other hand, am the opposite. I have many passions in life: teaching, writing, creating fun or pretty cakes, drooling over Johnny Iuzzini (joking..maybe!) and am always thinking what else can I do?! Continue reading → Save the Puppy