I don’t know many writers in my everyday life. Hell, I don’t know many writers except for social media. Even then, I am so bad with making connections with any of them because of many reasons:
- I have a couple Instagram profiles so sometimes I forget to post on any of them or just focus on my personal one instead of my writing one, etc.
- I am mindlessly looking at reels.
- Stranger danger and other paranoid thoughts
- Who knows?
My point is that I don’t know many writers…like REALLY know them so I don’t know if I am alone in these thoughts or not, but I tend to feel anxious about when my writing gets published (yes I said WHEN because perhaps if I can see it happening, then it will happen).
For example, I am editing a novel I wrote and cannot wait to find an agent to work on getting it published. I just ADORE everything about this story and think others will like it too. It is a combination of When Harry Met Sally, Dexter, AND Gone Girl. Needless to say, my writing is different than ME. My characters say whatever the f@&! they want and they DO whatever the hell they want as well.
I am not like that. I am a Reading Specialist at an elementary school so therefore I have trained myself to not curse during the day and I keep my words that I say to my coworkers PG or PG13. With all that said, if I were not at work and was chillin’ with my best friend, then our conversation would definitely be R rated. (Is it obvious I am a mother of a teen?) Yet my characters are worse. They cheat on their spouses, have sex at work, might be killing some people when no one is looking (or is someone looking?), say the most horrible things, etc, etc.
So fellow writers, do you also have this feeling? “I published a book! but mother-in-law, don’t read it!”
I do have those thoughts. However, I try to push those thoughts away as best I can because I admit that I tend to worry about people’s thoughts and opinions way too much.
The gist of it all is that I just want to write whatever stories I want. Though some are strange, creepy, murderous, or sad. My hope is to get my stories out for people to enjoy them. I might have to give that disclaimer to my in-laws and my son, but that is life right?!
- This photo and this blog are not meant for just women to read. It is a picture that I liked, but this blog is for all people/not gender specific. ↩︎
Jessica Warren 
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